After so long, finally I get to update my blog again. These few months alot of things are happening to me which are bad.
Firstly was someone leaving me which I loved him the most, trying to salvage this relationship but nothing good has happened :( Try to move on but tend to still miss him but I know by thinking already won't help as he already got a new girlfriend, should just give my blessing to them :) Now I do believe what's mine it eventually be mine, if not no point holding on to something which doesn't belong to you in the beginning.
Secondly was my course had changed from part-time to full-time due to some reason. Trying to cope 6 modules in one semester and having 5 examinations currently and I got a feeling that Monday exam I will flung the paper as the lecturer didn't really give much informations to study :(
Thirdly,recently I know someone whom haven't really fully break up with his girlfriend and I know it is not right to have a feeling for that guy but ended up we try out this relationship to see how things goes between us and the fact I starting to like him more and more... I got no confident that I will give him happiness as I got phobia of all my previous relationship, I tend to think that I will not be a good girl as that girl. That girl pretty and I'm not, I know I shouldn't compare and stuff but I really scared that one day he will leave me :( I praying hard that things will really turn out good for both of us cause I know that I will fall for him more and more without realizing and I want to know him better 😘😘
< Wish you are beside me right now, I miss you so badly 😔😔 I hope we can remain like this forever >
